Random Insomnia

Insomnia. It's on nights like this when I really feel for the people with that problem.
Correct me if I'm wrong here but doesn't the inability to sleep SUCK like no other? I find it 'funny' how I can be completely exhausted all day, but the minute I lay down suddenly I'm wired.
My mind is racing through everything I have to do tomorrow and whether or not I'll be able to get it all done in the time I have left after skiing, I thought that kind of Insomniatical stress was reserved for motherhood and motherhood alone. Apparently not-.-
And the earlier I have to get up the worse it is, I lay here counting the small number of hours of sleep I'll get before I have to wake up, which only makes the non sleep all the more awake of course,...ah well it happens to the best of us I suppose.
On a lighter, less angry-at-my-mind-for-not-following-the-sleeping-schedule-of-my-body note.
SKIING!!
Skiing is such a crazy thing. Every single time I think about it I get those nervous heebiejeebies. The clenched feeling in my stomach [probably due to the worst day of my life. But we've all heard that story..probably more than once:p] I think about all the various ways/bones to injure wiping out. The nervous feeling lasts until I actually get out there on the snow, and then I'm in love. I love love love skiing. I don't even think about being afraid, not even of wiping out, while I'm on the snow going down a run. It's so funny how you can love something and fear it at the same time. Makes me think of our love for God. We can love Him so much, yet still be afraid of Him. Holding onto our fears until we are actually in His presence and then we can't get enough of the calm peace He'll give us if we simply seek Him for it.
Consequentially that brings me to my ABSOLUTE favorite bible verse [my favorite verse is the first one, but the whole chapter is phenomenal] :

Psalm 121
I lift my eyes unto the hills-
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip-
he who watches over you will
not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you-
the Lord is your shade at your right
hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm-
he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming
and going
both now and forever more.

That makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Knowing that the God who created every single one of us, and then came and died to rescue us, the God who keeps loving us every single time we mess up and break his heart, He guarantees us that He's going to take care of us always. Simply because He loves us. A love that big is something to be in shock and awe about right there.
The whole skiing thing really makes me think of the way humans tend to look up to something grand and majestic for help. Forgetting sometimes to put their faith in God to take care of them instead of other things that seem greater because we can see them. God made all those things, and he is grander than every single one of them.

"God is bigger than the Boogie Man.
He's bigger than Godzilla..."

radical lover?

Here I am with a blog? Reading through Mikey's made me [*SIDENOTE* one of my favorite things in the world is alliteration. So I simply must point it out whenever I see it. The type of alliteration I love is when three or more words that start with the same sound come one after the other, but let us see what the dictionary has to say on the matter shall we?

1.

the commencement of two or more stressed syllables of a word group either with the same consonant sound or sound group (consonantal alliteration), as in from stem to stern, or with a vowel sound that may differ from syllable to syllable (vocalic alliteration), as in each to all. Compare consonance (def. 4a).

2.	the commencement of two or more words of a word group with the same letter, as in apt alliteration's artful aid.

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Origin:
1650–60; < class="ital-inline">alliterātiōn-, s. of alliterātiō, equiv. to al- al- + literātiō, modeled after obliterātiō obliteration but intended to convey a deriv. of littera letter

So there you have it. On to what I was saying...] really want to type things out. But I don't exactly want people reading it. Because then I'll feel so pressured to say something wonderful and creative, and I'll probably get burned out and quit anyways. I may get over that. We'll just have to see.. I'm not one to advertise my writing around and have people look at it. I'm simply content just to write it :]

So what about this name of mine? Am I claiming myself to be some sort of hippie girl who loves everybody?? Not quite.
Who is the most radical lover you can think of?
One person comes to my mind.
A person who isn't even a person.
Fully a man, yet fully God.
Jesus Christ.
My main goal in life is to love with a love as radical, and complete, and fulfilling as that man did when He was on earth. Jesus Christ is my ultimate role model, both now and forever. When I get to Heaven I want him to congratulate me for living and loving my best. I want to be doing something worth while with [alliteration!] my time on this earth.
And that is why I am claiming to be trying to be a radical lover. I know I'm not there yet, nobody is actually "there" except the ultimate lover himself.
But we can all strive together, loving each other to the best of our ability. That's my only claim :]

"Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind'. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the law and the prophets hand on those two commandments."

see? It all comes down to love.